- Kristan Lieb
I try to keep things in false check. I push things away more often than dealing with the tangled mess they offer.
I find myself very lonely here. I don't know if winter is to blame or the obvious. I think the conflict comes from what society expects or what I perceive society to expect. I don't feel like I am hitting a "quarter life crisis" although, that is what society would call it. I am dissatisfied.
Most of the time, I am just bored. And I think it is the worst. I am wasting hours daily, doing what? I don't even know.
I don't want the typical job. Or be the typical stereotype of an English major.
I want to write. I, also, want to make clothes. But how much do I really want my own shop? To have to worry about it... I am so bored with my job.
Maybe I need to try harder.
Beyond that, Burt, has learned to open cabinets... he likes to get up in the high ones and lay there. Perhaps, he is thinking, "I am the king of this place, up here"...
And Rosemary, she purrs most of the day, she must love something about her life.
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I really think that you should go to grad school! Honestly, it'll be worth the debt.. and finding a job with such a degree is (at least said.. at this point) a lot easier. Now that you have had a break you could really focus on what you really want to do with school.
I know I will have to after a bit of a break when I finally get this fucking BA...
But I feel the same way you do, except here in Kansas City. I met a great guy here but other than that I am too busy and bored with what I am busy with to really meet a lot of people who are on my level.
Things are getting better, though. It helps me focus on working on a healthy relationship which I had no idea how to do beforehand. I had to rid myself of all distractions, apparently. I guess it all came with the territory with all of my old friends and I here having strange falling outs... hopefully all well be settled soon enough.
I think maybe it's just the time. Things are constantly in flux and transition. At least for me. I meet someone on my level and then they're not there anymore. I am enjoying the lack of drama and am waiting to feel comfortable enough with myself to know what I need in any friendships. The past kind of burnt me out. The break has been welcomed.
I guess I have learned that it's perfectly normal for a state of stagnation to come along... Sometimes it's short, or for months... like me.
It's just the calm before the storm! Next weekend is coming up!
We need to find the key to Rosemary's happiness.
that's a great photo.
You could always come back to jamaica, mon.
haha What the hell are you talking about? And Audrey, school is always in the front of my brain, just getting it realized...
Well, Jamaica...St. Louis...they have so many common elements.
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